This is 40!!!

Hi Friends! So here we are... it happened, I turned 40! I read back through my promises to myself the morning of my birthday of where I wanted to be, who I wanted to be, and how I thought I was going to get there. It is absolutely incredible the changes that life can bring in just one trip around the sun.

So let's just start with I have learned that this journey does not end. There will be some days that are better than others, there will be moments of tears, silence, reflection, laughter, guilt, anger, doubt and hope. There will be times where you look in the mirror and question who you are and if these moments in your life are really happening.

Then you will have moments like this morning, where you take a deep breath and realize life is not fully in your control and the moment when you think it is will be the moment God reminds you it is not.

I have hit some significant goals that I promised myself. I have lost most of the weight, re-balanced my health through proper nutrition and exercise. Found time for reflection every morning. I have reconnected with family members and friends that I truly love and adore. I have my little sidekick and bff, Gracie, with me every step of the way. I am so grateful for her and the absolute joy she has brought to my life.

This year I have felt the deepest pain of loss, the pure joy of a puppy, the incredible love of family and friends, and every ounce of emotion in between. This year, I recognize that growth of self is like a rubric cube and you have to keep moving parts to balance the colors and make it whole.

I have so many new followers of this blog and I am so appreciative for you all and staying on this journey with me. I hope you know that inspiration to write and share these personal thoughts is not easy but as you have all helped me and encouraged me on my journey, I hope I can do the same for you.